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Back to square one.

2010-11-29T01:52:00.002+08:00

How many months have passed, ever since I touched this blog?
How many things have occurred, when this blog was inactive?
The answer is, innumerable things.
Ranging from one extreme to the other.
My emotions and my feelings, they're gamut.

O levels was like a hurricane, sweeping past all of us in a period of 2-3 weeks.
We fought, but I know I wasn't a good fighter this time round.
I let my guard down, I didn't fight a good fight in fact.
It seem like, I've let myself down this time, a whole lot.
I'm disappointed in myself.
Results will be release in about a month's time I suppose.
Wonder how will it go,
Whether this soldier here has successfully won the battle.
I do not know.

People say, once O levels are gone, we'll have all the fun we can have.
I guess, I'm not fated to have this phase of my life.
Reason?
All the fun has faded away, right after the last paper ended.
9 people, that ain't gonna be together again.
Saddening, eh?
Indeed.
It took me quite a while to adjust to it.
Up till now, memories linger, flashbacks occur.
Instant replay of what happened, when I past some places.
Places that hold our memories.
They do come back and make me realise, why didn't I treasure what I had?
Life taught me a harsh yet important lesson through this.
No use dwelling on it now,
Can't dwell on it.
Cause no matter how hard you try, nothing's gonna stay the same.
They say, change is constant.

Time flies.
Tick tock, tick tock.
Every second is a wasted time.
Wished I could spend each and every second wisely.
The future,
It's approaching.
I feel it,
It's bleak.

Do you ever feel like a plastic, drifting through the wind, wanting to start over again?
I do.

2010-06-29T22:26:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time, isn't it?
I doubt anyone will see this post haha if you do,just leave a tag.

January 18 till now..
Numerous things have occured and taken place,
Memories that this blog doesn't hold anymore.

2010-01-18T23:44:00.002+08:00

Its been quite sometime since I really logged in Blogger.
Well, nothing much to update.
Just realise, more people are using tumblr than Blogger now.
Anyway, nothing much.
Nobody needs to relink and yup, changed my tumblr url again.
crashedwalls.tumblr.com

2009-11-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

Moved to tumblr, but will be still keeping this blog.
www.drowninsilence.tumblr.com (:

One, cos I have memories all stored here.
Two, I can continue to read updates from blogger and all.
Three, keep up with links.

So, people if you changed your url or something, just tag on the tagboard and I'll know.

2009-10-26T22:18:00.003+08:00

Many people using tumblr now, maybe I should create one?
Ah, never mind, put that aside first, I'm not doing my work.
Fuck biology man, it's so damn dry.
Currently, I'm not touching it cos I'm dealing with two angry people.
Trying hard to console them, hope I dont make things worst.
Please please please, dont let me screw up once again.
I've been screwing things up at the wrong timings always.
Random- I don't feel like doing biology anymore.

Don't screw. don't screw. don't screw.
Please be alright. please be alright. please be alright.

2009-10-22T22:08:00.003+08:00

Headstart this week sucks.
There isn't any proper lessons at all man.
All we do was slack and slack, no teachers.
Thank god tomorrow is friday, but there's muay thai. ):
Gonna be damn tired man. ):
I want a gateway. (:

2009-10-16T00:34:00.003+08:00

Blogger screwed up.
Hotmail screwed up.
Tagboard will be back soon.

2009-10-14T22:15:00.004+08:00

Dear God, please just let this family be fine.
Let everything settle down.
Watch over everyone I love, protect them.
Let dad be fine too.
Amen.

2009-10-13T21:37:00.004+08:00

500th post

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I don't get why parents quarrel like some idiots.
Can't both of them just fucking give in to each other.
They make themselves seem so childish.
What's their problem.
Sigh, I wished back home I had a sibling to turn to.

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Dear God, please let things at home be put to a stop.

2009-10-10T00:24:00.003+08:00

Was just browsing through every picture all of us took.
I miss the past, those memories.
Please don't let it stop.
Dear God, please let the people I love be happy everytime.
Amen.

2009-10-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

We're living in an insane world.

2009-10-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

Tsunami, typhoons and earthquakes..
All happening in mostly asia man, and part of USA.
The world's dying soon.
What's becoming of this world?

Ps: One more day.

2009-09-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

Keep hanging on, people.

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Never touched lappy for 3 days already man. ):
Just finished filing all the mock papers for sciences and history.
Realized actually ms poh and ms siti gave a lot man.
Well, at least be happy that no more mock papers to do,
Now just concentrate on revising through the notes. (:
I need to really start settling myself down for math and history.
Before I really run out of time, and its starting from tomorrow.
Come on come on.

Lastly, I need to stop being complacent,
If not, it'll be the one that's killing me.
S T O P.

2009-09-18T21:28:00.003+08:00

We're on the last lap now.

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Gosh, I just ate dinner an hour ago and now I'm feeling hungry.
My stomach is weird man.
Recently, nothing much happen, didn't get bad moods as last week.
Yup, so guess its good.
Except that each and everyday is damn draining.
Especially, maths, bio and poa, those are killer subjects.
After the lessons I'll be like some zombie, tired and flimsy. -.-

But, thank God it's friday today! (:
Though we had POA paper 1 prelims,
I can only say, I screwed it a little.
Soooo, overall should be fine I hope.
Anyway, cos of it we got to skip 1 and half hours of history. ^^
That cuts today's day short, heh heh.
Plus, 13 of us painted the school toilet, it looks so much brighter.
I think the school should just keep it white luh, idiot.
Had fun, except for the sweating part.
Buddy slipped and fall while Adeline nearly slipped and fall. -.-
Then I got my shoe wet due to the rain, gah.
After painting, stayed in school, went to hostel and home. (:
While flagging for cabs, me and Adeline was laughing our ass off.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
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I just wish time would stop this instance.

2009-09-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW.IS.BACK.TO.SCHOOL.
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MUG.LIKE.HELL.
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NOT.MUCH.TIME
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MORE.HOMEWORKS.
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SLEEPLESS.NIGHTS.
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ZOMBIE.WH.

2009-09-10T22:31:00.002+08:00

Cleared english, chinese and ss like finally! (:
Hopefully I will be able to score well, and so does the others.
Now, just hardcore revision throughout till 12 october is over man.
Work hard people.
Speaking of which, today was such an unproductive day.
Cos wanted to study then kena drag to town.
So saturday shall be homework day, yup, hopefully. -.-

Btw, yesterday night, chatted with pal. (:
She was my best back then man, haha, nice chat with her tho.
I'm really glad that even tho 4 years has past, she still talks to me. (:
All the best in everything you do yo.
Remember go for your dream!

Lastly, its three more months till 2010.
Frankly speaking, I really don't want it to come.
I want time to stop at this instance.
Cos, I don't want it to be different.

2009-09-05T22:42:00.001+08:00

Dead blog, gah.
No time to update lately that's why, haha.
N levels are coming in 2 days time man.
Good luck people. (:
Do your best yo.
Oh yeah, got back report book yesterday, quite satisfy.
Could see improvement.
I hope my girls are able to do it too.
Please please please please.
Oh yeah, I'm starting to play yo-yos again.

Lastly, received a bad news today.
Saber passed away, sigh.
Rest in peace kiddo. ):

2009-08-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

Thanks to people who wished me today.
-My girls
-Aisyah
-Jia Yi
-Yong Wei
-Dagna
-Wan Yu
-Amethyst
-Brenda lee and boo
-Esmeralda
-Gillian
-Syafaat
-Shafeeq
-Joanna
-Alfee
-Dhurrgah
-Sharmila
-Rion Yiu
-Whole class for singing me birthday song.

All these are much appreciated and sorry if I missed anyone out.
Also thanks to Aisyah for the cute dinosaur and card, buddy for the funny letter. (:
This is really the most memorable birthday I ever had, all thanks to you all. (:

2009-08-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

I wanna blog before this day ends man. (:
Its gonna be a long post..
Firstly, before I start blogging about events. I wanna say a BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU TO MY GIRLS. (:
Thanks to each one of you for making this advance 16th birthday so wonderful.
I really really enjoyed all of yours company and the presents you all gave.
Bet your spend a bomb luh. ):
Rest assure man, I'll definitely keep today inside my memory, haha.
I love each and everyone of you because you all are special to me.
Always a place in my heart. (:

Ok,now lets move on to the events.

---Start---
Early in the morning, Andrea ask me go her house at 1145am cos her mama want to talk to me.
AND I BELIEVE OK, SHE SOUNDED SO SERIOUS.
But then, on the bus, I sort of figure out what's gonna happen. ^^
But but, I still keep a look out luh in case its really true her mama wanna talk to me.
Reasons why I manage to figure out..

One. When I texted buddy, she sounded weird. HAHHA, so telepathy again uh.
Two. Andrea keep checking on where am I and I heard something like "SSSSHHHHH" when she called.
Three. Yesterday night, Eileen leak out a little detail on time and venue plus her text this morning.
Four. Smell something fishy for the past few days.

Yup, so thats all that made me suspect. ^^
Anyway, they surprised me by hiding under the table.
Next, bombarded me with a nice cardboard and a bag of presents. (:
2 boxers, Ben-10 watch, 3 flowery undies, Transformers belt, couple shirt.
Then, they evil, chase me out and when I came in I saw a dinosaur floating. -.-
It was a pinayata, haha, so I hit hit hit luh then the candies all fall out. ^^
After that, Andrea showed me a video they did for me.
Damn cute ok I swear, all of them so camera shy. HAHA.
I want the video.
Oh yeah, so instead of cake they got me strawberry sorbet.
Then Bridget arrive.
We camwhored after that with Andrea's webcam.
Also, at the same time we celebrated Nat nat's birthday too.
Happy birthday too, kiddo!

Left Andrea's house at 1 plus and headed to Harbourfront.
Trained to Farrer Park and twin's parents sent us to Tampines for twin's religious thingy.
Their mama scary. ):
Bridget, me, Andrea and Eileen didn't go with them so went macs to eat and talk.
Then twins came to meet us at 4 plus.
Bus-ed to Tampines MRT and switched to MRT to Bugis to meet Ally and Adeline. (:
Before that took neoprint.
You two, though your didn't surprised me in the morning.
But both of yours presence is already enough, thanks alot. (:
Headed to Arab street and Hadji lane to find SS but failed, sigh.
Never mind, its ok still.
So we had dinner at 630 plus, and it was steamboat!
I didn't pay a single cent cos it was a present from them.
Damn ex ok, I really enjoyed it cos it was memorable in many ways, haha.
Especially the fire and burning part, haha.

Lastly, headed back to Bugis to collect our neoprint and wash up.
We stinked badly though. -.-
So after wash up, sent twins to their parents and we headed to MRT station.
Jay walked a lot of times cos wanted to get a cab.
In the end no choice, on called a cab.
Sent Ally and Adeline home first, then me and Andrea cabbed back.
Followed her cos have to take my present. (:
Then I cabbed home, reached at about 10 plus.
Mama didn't scold, she say the presents are nice.
Especially the handmade cardboard and the undies. HAHA.
Unpack presents, bathed, pack bag for tomorrow, use lappy!
---End---

Now time for me to say my last piece. -.-
I know I'm really long winded today. /:
But just let me say it before its turning 12.
I'm extremely happy and contented today cos besides that today was advance celebration..
It was also another occasion. (:
Plus, it was with my favorite girls so everything is really well.
I enjoyed it damn damn damn alot.
Sorry have to make your sacrifice so much somehow.
Especially the precious sleep you all need since tomorrow is monday. ):
I hope you all manage to sleep well and wake up later.

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To: Adeline (EP)
EP! I'm raelly glad that you are here to celebrate with me for this advance birthday. Surely, you also put in a lot of effort for this wonderful celebration. Thank you so much and really sorry to have made you go all the way to Bugis to fetch us to the steamboat place cos we took a cab and got lost. Oh yeah, and hope you like the chicken wings I bbq-ed. Haha, first time someone complimented on my cooking. Hope you sleep well tonight, see you! Thanks and love you. (:

To: Alicia (Affair)
Ally, really appreciated it so much that you could come out and celebrate with me today. I bet you must have begged your mama for a lot of times to go out and probably she scolded you. ): So sorry for it. But I really enjoyed it alot alot. For the steamboat thingy, I bet your hair smells bad. But thanks for taking us there for dinner. It was really nice. Hopefully, you're getting your beauty sleep now and see you later. Thanks and love you. (:

To: Andrea (Babe)
Babeeeeeee, thank you so much for putting in so much effort to make my birthday great. I really appreciate it alot, and I love you! I know now you are upset with the lost of the ring, but don't be sad anymore yeah? We'll do one new one. (: Again, I want to give a big thank you to you for today, bet you must have took out alot of time to prepare all these. Now, you're in lalaland already. Hope you manage to get a good night's rest and all the best for your piano exam tomorrow, go go go uh! I'll pray for the matter one, dont worry. Thanks and love you. (:

To: Bridget (Yeng yenggggg)
Yenggggggggggggggg, thanks for today man, I raelly really enjoyed it and appreciate it. You never fail to make me laugh like crazy especially for today. Plus plus, you changed your POA tuition with Yvonne for today, really really sorry you have to do that. But I'm really happy that you could eat with us. Hope you have a good night sleep babe. (: See you! Thanks and love you. (:

To: Eileen (Bro)
Brooooooo, you bong bong! Lack out details since yesterday. Haha, but I really enjoy and appreciate what you have also planned for my advance birthday. I bet you went broke for the presents and all luh. Plus, made you lose your beauty sleep cos we have to go home so late. Sorry uh. Good thing is, I really enjoyed today and hopefully now you're in your lalaland already. Please please please, sleep well and be able to wake up later man. Thanks and love you, ok, I know this sounds gay but still. (:

To: Kellice (Scandal)
Babeeee, thanks for being part of this wonderful birthday and you bet I definitely enjoyed it to the fullest. Bet you didn't get to eat breakfast cos you have to rush to Andy's house to surprise me thats why kena tummy ache. ): Sorry too. But uh, don't feel bad for making us wait at macs for you and Kellsie to finish your religious thing already. Cos its ok, haha. You're confirm in your lalaland now, sleep tight yeah and have sweet dreams. Hopefully, your muscle ache will be gone by tomorrow. Thanks and love you. (:

To: Kellsie (Buddy)
Budddyyyyyyy, I know luh, you made a lot of sacrifice for me by stepping into Bugis and eating steamboat just to celebrate today plus yesterday you slept late and had to wake up early Really much appreciated for all you've done. I really enojyed everything that happened today to the fullest. Yes, including the two hours we spent in macs waiting for you and Kellice. So don't feel bad about it like Kellice. Now you also confirm in your lalaland now, so sleep well and please please, be able to wake up later and don't be tired, you pig ): Thanks and love you. (:

To: Everyone
P.s All the words, each one of them is really from deep down in my heart. I decided to blog it out cos I shy to tell you all face to face luh uh. -.- All of you surely in lalaland already. So sorry made your lose your sleep. ): But, I really enjoyed today and love all of you much. Tomorrow marks a new day for all of us. Lets all chiong for N levels and graduate together from this school in 2010. Yup, this is one of my birthday wish. I certainly hope it can be fulfil, yeah? (:
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Ok, I'm finally contented.
Time check now is 1224am, I took exactly one hour to blog.
Time to sleep now, nights. (:

2009-08-23T00:13:00.005+08:00

Time to update man.

Supposed to update 13 minutes ago, but I was too addicted to Final Fantasy, haha.

Anyway, yesterday was fun cos we went to watch The Orphan at The Cathy.

Wl, the show is more like violence and gore instead of horror sia.

Then in the end, made me have nightmare over it. -.-

Never mind, shall put the nightmare aside first.

So after the movie, some idiotic fools just have to find trouble with us.

They are one bunch of gang luh, some still in uniform, wth.

Still want to call their gang to come down and settle when we didn't even do anything.

Fuckers.

Didn't have time to entertain them, cos we were rushing for muay thai.

So in the end, they didn't even apologize to us and the security let them off.

Bloody hell, but never mind, luckily we reach muay thai in time.

Ok, now back to my dream.

I dreamt that there were these bunch of killers that intrude my house.

Then I was fighting them until they suddenly went away again.

So me and mama relax awhile then run away.

But, before we can even escape, one of the killers came back.

Then then then, lucky he didn't manage to kill me cos...

My phone vibrated then I woke up!

It was 5:26am!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

That text saved me man or at least from 'being killed in a dream'.

Speaking of which, I never really had a dream that I was dead before. -.-

Alright, nonsensical me.

Time for me to go off too.

Can't wait for later, teehee.

Oh yeah, its gonna rain soon. /:

2009-08-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

I'm really really gonna kill lappy soon.

Its screwing my facebook and blogger up.

Plus, its making the whole thing lag like mad.

RAWR.

2009-08-16T01:05:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night, all of a sudden I felt the sense of loneliness.

Also, the feeling that I have lost something or someone.

Tonight, or rather this morning, I feel the sense of disappointment and sadness.

Absurd feelings, I don't know.

Will it go away fast?

I really hope so.

Sigh.

2009-08-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

Finally had some time to blog man.
These few days have been rather busy cos prelims starts this friday.
Zzz..
I guess today will also be the day where I can actually sleep early man, haha.
Good luck people.

2009-08-08T00:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY ALICIA. (:

2009-08-04T16:52:00.004+08:00

Won't be blogging much nowadays.

Homeworks are crashing like nobody's business and there's so many things to do.

I really thing 24hours a day is not enough.

I'm sure everyone lack sleep now man, especially when prelims are in 10days time. ):

Rest assure, I'm sure things would past fast and soon we'll be able to party like mad.

Hang on for awhile more.

Before I go, I want to say I really miss my house.

Only some of you will know what I'm talking about because I regard it as somehow a private thing.

Oh well, time to go, homeworks at night and moving things later.

Adious.

2009-08-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

Blogger is finally back to normal after one week, zzz

My throat still hurts like mad, gahhhh, tomorrow need to go see doctor again. ):

Hate taking medicine, so hard to swallow.

Prelims is in 2 weeks time, hoepfully everyone will be able to revise in time. (:

After this two months will be freedom already man, can't wait.

Oh yeah, so many people falling sick lately..

Sighhh, damn the flu bug, go and die man. ):

Take care, Andrea and those who are sick (including me) -.-

Shall be going to sleep soon, medicine taking effect.

Ciaoooo.

Sleep tight people.

2009-07-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

Everyone has their own war to fight, deep inside.

Simple summary, I'm just happy that the major one has already cleared.
I'm happy for you two and proud of you two. (:
Friendships are really fragile, treasure who you are with and make every moment count.
I'm sure now, some of us are still fighting within.
Be strong, you are still a human after all.

2009-07-26T20:15:00.001+08:00

YEAHHHH BABEHHHH.
Fever gone down, doctor said I could go school.
WOOHOOO!
Final check tomorrow morning, if no fever then I'm going.
Heh heh.

2009-07-26T11:20:00.000+08:00

Kena 2 days MC.
Sighhh, what a nice timing to fall sick man.
There's like so many activities and test lining up.

Monday- N level Chinese oral and English assignment
Tuesday- Chemistry test
Wednesday- Biology revision test
Thursday- History test

I WANT TO GO SCHOOL LUH.
DAMMIT.
Fuck you flu bug, idiotic flu bug.
I want to take my bloody tests and oral ok.
Hack, now important thing is fever goes down. ):
If not, I'll have to go back to doctors.

2009-07-24T23:57:00.006+08:00

Changed to a new blogskin. (:
I think its not bad, not that dark, just nice plain one.
Returned home from muay thai, now super drained and I feel down all sudden. ):
Before that, went to cut hair, catch The Haunting of Connecticut (its nice yo) then Ikea for food.
I'm bored and down now.
But no one to text to now, cos all are probably asleep by now.
Sleep tight people.
I think I should be going to sleep too, but I don't want.
Weird me, I know, haha.
Oh yeah, tomorrow is gonna be work clearing day again.
So much to do man, nearly all subjects.
Gosh, please let me survive tomorrow.
Btw, I'm getting back my cough, damn.
Looks like cough mixture time is back.
Sigh. ):

Blogger is crazy, it doesn't let me post properly sia.
And I wanna change my url.
But I can't cos there are people who abandon their blogs like in 2002 with the url that I want. ):
Can't they just delete their blog if they don't want and let others have the url?
Sigh.

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned

There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow

And the ground caved in between where we were standing

And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserved

2009-07-22T21:29:00.001+08:00

Total eclipse day; 22/7/09

I wanna watch it!
But too bad Singapore don't have. Sigh.
Now have to wait for 500 more years to catch it. ):

2009-07-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

I feel bored, and sad now.
No particular reason.
Maybe its cos of the songs I'm listening at this time.

2009-07-19T23:45:00.004+08:00

I gave up on my homework.
Its just way too much and I can't finish all within 2 days.
Gahh, this sucks.
Bet this week is gonna be so bloody pack.
Shit it.
Btw, I miss my SS girls and best. ):
Lastly, I hoped that daddy will be fine.

2009-07-18T23:29:00.001+08:00

Some songs does brings back millions of memories.
It made me feel like I've gone back to the past.

2009-07-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

TGIF day today man, haha, one of my most happiest fridays of all! (:
Started off counting like mad in class, but before that stupid buddy and scandal cheated me.
Which I really fall for their trap, gah.
Then finally school dismissal time, happy like hell, so rushed back home.
Changed, and I dashed right out of the house to meet the babes outside school, heh.
I look like a zebra though,but anyway, bus-ed to Eileen's house, its their first time going there..
So they have to cross the longkang!

Swam, played T or D, Bathed then started eating and camwhoring like mad. (Facebook)
This is one of the rare occasions that WH is photogenic man. -.-
Oh yeah, I swear buddy is terrified of Julio. She's being a cavewoman cos of that.
Heh, had a lot of fun on the com man, we were laughing our asses off over something. ^^
Then left the house at 630pm for muay thai!
It was bloody enjoyable man, like seriously man.
I only kena like 3 scoldings, which don't really seemed like scoldings. (:
But I'm tired and drained now yet its all worthwhile if its with the babes yo.
( Sad thing, no keyboard for today, too tired to play. )

2009-07-16T21:14:00.008+08:00

I feel that these 2 days are so unproductive man. ):
Except for the learning to play the piano part, haha.
Anyway, today's oral was badly done I guess?
I was practically stuttering and pausing for damn long luh. Super scared man.
Then I think I screwed up the stupid conversation the most sia, came up with a bunch of lies.
Cos I literally had nothing to say man, how nice.

I.AM.NOT.DOING.MY.WORK.AGAIN.
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I.FEEL.RATHER.SCREWED. -.-

GAHHHH, this feeling is so irritating. I should seriously calm myself down to study on sat.
Btw, I'm sad over certain things. ):
Really sad, and I can't describe it. Sigh.
At the same time, I'm trying my best to keep myself reminded that I have to study. -.-
Conclusion- revise on weekends to make up for these 2 days of unproductive-ness.
I have no life now. Damnnnn. This feeling sucks. Aish!
I think we're sleep deprived now, maybe that'll explain my headaches lately.
Oh yeah, TGIF, swimming with the girls tomorrow and muay thai! (:

2009-07-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

Transformers 2 was super duper awesome! I'm in love with Optimus Prime and Bumblebee man, haha! Muay thai wasn't that bad as I thought it'd be cos today I only kena scolded 3 times, and we did with packs so its kind of ok. (: Can't wait for next friday.

I think it's everytime I walked into a room

A silence so sudden that I seem to hear it

Smiles turns to frown

Contact saying you're the rain on their parade

2009-07-08T20:56:00.009+08:00

Had lunch with the girls today, its been a long time since we ate outside man. Quite fun and enjoyable. (: Then came back home, run some errand for mama and I was not suppose to nap today but in the end took a 1 hour nap. So currently, feel a little more energetic to do POA. P.s: Its terrorizing my life man but..

I've.got.to.persevere.

Yet, I'm really stuck now and there's 5 more questions to go. Worst is, I don't like it when I leave answers blank but I really don't know the answer. Damn. Why did I even choose this path in the first place? Sigh. Am feeling damn shit now, I sprained the left side of my neck.

2009-07-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

This video is freaking funny. HAHA. Btw, I'm suppose to be doing my homework now. Heh heh.

2009-07-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

Muay thai was draining man, I keep getting scolded by coach. Sigh, so bloody malu luh. In front of whole class somemore, sigh. Lets hope by next friday I will do it correctly, I can't bloody hell coordinate. ): I'm such a bad multitasker. ):

These few days, some problems have been going haywire, and though its really weird of me to say this but I just hope you and you will be fine, please, both of you be strong like the person I know no matter what may come. I know its hard, but please.

-

You found me
When no one else was looking
How did you know just where I would be?

2009-07-01T21:20:00.003+08:00

Its the start of July, which means all of us are nearing exams in just 44 days, yet, things tend to happen at this time. I wonder, seriously, does peace ever exist? I don't think so. But I certainly hope whatever thats gonna happen now, would not affect anyone's studies. C'mon, no time to lose anymore. Lastly, my left arm is hurting again.

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So take a look at me now
Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

2009-06-27T14:07:00.004+08:00

Currently at airport, I have no idea when to board the plane cos they never tell me. I had a nightmare today man, I dreamt that I was a murderer then I killed some guy with another guy sia, and I finally realised how scary it really is when you know you killed someone. It all seemed damn real, but I hope it doesn't comes true. Then had another dream, this time with half of the clique only, but this one not scary, just hope that it doesn't happen in real life.

Tomorrow's the last day of holiday, shall complete the chinese homework and poa questions by tomorrow. Monday have to wake up early again!

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I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of time when

2009-06-25T00:54:00.002+08:00

I'm sad and happy now, sad cos I don't know and partially cos one character died in L word. -.- Then happy cos I've finally moved on to season 4. (: Tomorrow the girls will be having muay thai and hope they enjoy it man, unlike me, still need to wait till next week, sigh. Anyways, I'm looking forward to seeing them on monday.

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I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline

2009-06-20T23:12:00.005+08:00

(probably the nicest photo I've ever took so far man -.-)

I miss Genting
I miss Andrea
I miss Eileen
I miss Kellsie
I miss Kellice
I miss Aisyah
I miss Bridget
I miss the rest of my friends (Sorry too lazy to type already cos there's alot more)
):

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So anyway, it'll be one freaking week more till I can see my girls man. How sad and I can't wait. But within this one week quite a lot of things needs to be done man, homeworks! Damn. Btw, daddy was being real funny just now, I didn't know he knows the Nobody song and dance by Wondergirls luh and he started demostrating it to me just now. So funny and gay man. Tomorrow shall be homework session at grandma's house, I sensed a war tomorrow though. Oh well.

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No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what its like
To be like me

2009-06-19T00:04:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDREA! (:
Hope you like the present me and Eileen gave you, you're finally 16 man and I'm not. Such a long way to go man, 2 more months.

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Last day at Genting today, sad man. I would love to stay longer sia. So activities for today were Snow World then follow by outdoor theme park, but only managed to play Cyclone cos we have to catch a movie at 4pm- Terminator: Salvation. Damn awesome man that show, makes me wanna watch from the first show onwards. I love it. Then after that went to eat at Kenny Rogers, awesome too! Shopped around at First World here, and managed to buy my Keroro disc. Lastly back to the hotel room.

We were all preparing to surprise Andrea so me and Eileen told her we're going to the arcade to change for her presents- One angel bee, cow and teacup while her aunt was preparing the cake and trying to check her but she was watching Scooby Doo 2, so came back and prepared next door then we crashed our own room! The floor was filled with drips of ice cream luh then me and Eileen had to clean since we have OCDs. -.- So now, currently, I'm dating the computer. Andrea and Eileen is watching the anime we bought from the DVD shop, maybe later we'll head down to Mac to grab something. (:

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I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street took a look at myself
Said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

2009-06-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

Day two- STILL SPASM DAY! Haha, Eileen and Andrea have been calling me spasm kid this few days cos I'm always spasm-ing over anything eg, mango. Anyway, today is the first time ever I entered a theme park and played a god damn roller coaster, bumper car. (See, my life is sad) So practically both of them were shocked this is my first time. Worst thing, during the cyclone ride, I screamed more than Andrea, damn embarassing man but fun. Then went arcade just now, I kena jackpot! (: So had lots of tickets and all is enough to get Andrea's birthday present which is a 5000 ticket gigantic toy. Total we had like 6000+ tickets.

Hopefully today we're able to sleep properly cos yesterday slept at 5am all thanks to my spasmness. Currently, Andrea talking on the phone and Eileen's taking her 1 hour shiok shiok showey while I'm dating the computer. (: And hopefully back in Singapore, nothing is happening. Btw, I miss my girls. ): Oh yeah, last thing, we finally managed to get Eileen to resurrect her dead blog.

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Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

2009-06-16T15:21:00.004+08:00

Current location- Genting! The room is ultra big and we were having some type of spasm upon entering the room. Best thing, they have a god damn computer babehhhhh! Anyway, journey here was tiring. Ok, i got to go, Andrea is gonna use youtube. -.-

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Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

2009-06-13T14:20:00.002+08:00

Those who wanna watch Drag Me To Hell better be prepared man, its worst than Coming Soon . Really, its the violence that makes it damn bloody scary man. Don't even get why they rate Coming Soon as NC16 and Drag Me To Hell PG. When DMTH is much more scary, stupid ratings. Went to watch with half of the clique and my god, Andrea almost puke on me and buddy was screaming like mad then I was suffocating cos the violence is a bit rather too violent. Dammit.

Oh yeahhh, I can't wait for muay thai session with the girls man. It'll be fun. (: But sadly, I'll have to miss the first lesson. ): Sigh, nevermind.

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Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

2009-06-10T22:59:00.003+08:00

I wish I have a private theatre at home and films of my life like outings, funny moments, sad moments and everything being played then I could sit there and just watch how my life goes about, people involved and how they are to me. Ah, if only that could happen. Btw, school holiday have finally officially started. (:

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Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

2009-06-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

Walked past my kindergarden today and very very coincidentally, I saw Mdm Teng there, she's my kindergarden teacher. (: Love her alot man, probably the best teacher I've ever had. Anyway, she's much more older now obviously but neverthelessly, she managed to regconise me. She say I looked like a boy now but sad news is, she said they're gonna demolished the kindergarden building. ): I'm so gonna missed there man. The small little tiny room and chair.

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Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

2009-06-07T19:49:00.003+08:00

its not mine, its mama's. -.-

Sec one?

Primary 6 I think

Sec 2, surely some of you recgonise?

Primary 3-4 I think.

Sec one also.

Tonight's moon is really beautiful and bright. Full moon I guess? The sky is clear and all, it all the more makes me wanna study about the stars. Been sorting out old spectacles for donation so took a few photos to keep memories, dumb right? But nevermind, photos are above.

2009-06-04T20:36:00.003+08:00

Just a few more days and the real holiday is gonna come. Hope to complete all homeworks soon then will be able to do some revision. School was shit yesterday, or rather I felt shit and eff up. Today was ok, not much of that crap. Anyway, tomorrow is best's birthday. (:

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There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,

2009-06-02T22:20:00.001+08:00

All sudden I have this urge to study the stars, and I feel like just lying down, looking at the stars in the night sky man. Its beautiful.

2009-05-31T21:30:00.002+08:00

Its the last day of may and lets see, quite a few things happen though but the month did pass fast. Tomorrow is june which marks the start of holiday and mugging season, prelims and N are just months away, scary yo. Anyway, been down with flu these days, stupid flu bug. Andrea and buddy also down with flu. HAHA, except mine and buddy's was worst. Almost cough my lungs out in the bathroom just now and I sound weird.

2009-05-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

Ok, suppose to off com now but shall blog first before I go. Oral today was screwed up I think. Sigh. The conversation was rather awkward luh, think I'm not gonna do well for it. Anyway, recent updates are only results, pass all and things have been fine lately I suppose. May is coming to an end! Luckily, this month pass fast.

2009-05-20T20:00:00.003+08:00

Please.don't.let.it.fall.apart.

I felt really bad flaring just now, really didn't mean it. Hope they don't take it to heart. Sigh. Really sorry. Its damn sudden things turned out this way. All of the 10 of you, means a lot to me.

Andreaaaa, take care when you're there. Don't fall even more sick yeah.

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It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn’t know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn’t have to give a reason why

2009-05-19T20:56:00.007+08:00

Angels and Demons was awesome! Damn action pack and everything was like whoa! Heh, I don't mind watching again.

An update on what we did yesterday. Went out with Monochrome, it was rather fun cos we catch the movie The Uninvited, it was not bad but tragic and sad man. Then went to have dinner at Plaza Sing, really crap a lot over it, had lots of fun then headed back home. Now I bet Andrea is having fun in Macau, gahhhh, while me will have to go school tomorrow. TT.. Enjoy yourself uh Andrea. ^^

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its really been awhile since all of us have settle down and go out, but its just part of us, when will it be the whole full 11 of us go out as one? I wonder..

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Well, maybe this time I can follow through
I can feel complete
Stop paying dues
Stop the rain from falling
Keep my ocean calm
This time I know nothings wrong

2009-05-17T21:16:00.004+08:00

I think mummy is really really freaking funny just now. I shall type out the conversation here.

Mummy: Eh, look! Got one stupid cockroach eating my papaya!
Me: Huh? Where where? I want see!

So she showed me, then it was in the plastic bag since the papaya was placed in there.

Me: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Mummy: (Looking at plastic bag) Damn you cockroach, eat my papaya for what!

and guess what, she's so sadist that she went to took a rubber band and tie that plastic bag up and I think she started slamming the papaya with that poor roach inside. -.- maybe thats where I got my sadistic nature from somehow.

Me: HAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA, ITS ONLY A COCKROACH WHAT.
Mummy: What?! It ate my papaya ok! I wanted to eat it later luh, then see, now it bite until so many holes!

After that, I heard the opening of the rubbish chute.

Me: Eh, you threw it down uh?
Mummy: Yeah, if not keep it for what?
Me: Put in a jar and keep it as xiao qiang! ^^

Freaking funny luh, I first time see her get so agitated over a fruit sia. -.- K, anyway, today went 2 museums-Musuem of Shanghai Toys (MoST) and Singapore Philatic Museum. (: Its not bad.

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Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up
I don't know what to do

2009-05-16T20:52:00.003+08:00

In order to save my blog from dying, I shall update a little on these 2 days. One word to decribe I think? Undescribable. Too many things to elaborate. -.- Phone calls a lot nowadays man, like never ending and I have to change like don't know how many batteries.

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Life's like this
& you fall and you crawl and you break
& you take what you get and you turn it into

2009-05-13T23:25:00.004+08:00

All sudden, I feel quite nervous for tomorrow. I hope it passes fast man, and it'll be the end of the exams. Btw, I feel kind of funny lately, like something is not right within me and I can't seemed to find out what exactly it is. Mixed emotions I guess and I realised I like the colour brown, it makes me feel like the past.

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Sometimes, I wished I was like the leaves on the ground. I'll go wherever the wind takes me.

2009-05-13T19:37:00.005+08:00

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? Makes me wonder.

I think ok. hahahaha.
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? 好好爱

Gah?
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Won't go home without you

LOL. I'm already home, toothead.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Your guardian angel

HAHAAHHA, earth will crash if I'm an angel.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Potential breakup song

Holy crap. -.- I don't break up for life.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Give it to me

Whatttttt?!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Start of something new

LOL. This is the first proper answer man.

WHAT IS 2+2? Teenagers

-.- I must have failed math.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Graduation (Friends forever)

Eh, don't so sad luh. We haven't graduate you know.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Get high

ROFL. This is so so so true.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? S.O.S

Woah, very accurate sia.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? The sweet escape

Guess I'll be an escapee?

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Best day of my life

Eh, not bad not bad.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? Show me the money

HAHAHAHAHAHAH, this is so so so cool.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Helena

Wtf?

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Jesus of surburbia

Holy holy~

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Imma shine

So I'm a star in disguise?!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Listen to your heart

Heh, not badddd.

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? Girlfriend (Remix)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? Hero/heroine

Why would I cry. -.-

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? 曹操

He's dead. I'm not so bad to laugh at a dead person.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? Lollipop

Yeahhhh, sometimes I regret eating one.

HOW WILL YOU DIE? In the end

HAHAHAHAHAH, YES I KNOW I WILL DIE IN THE END.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? Come to me

How the hell you call that get married

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Perfect world

Woahhhhh, I'll be happy sia

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? Believe me

HAHAHAHAHA, OKOK, I BELIEVE YOU.

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? A thousand miles

Yeah, why would I walk so long for

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? Someday
Make sense..

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS? Stung

I'll get him/her a bee.

2009-05-10T20:36:00.001+08:00

Happy Mama's Day. HAHAHAHAHA. I got for mummy a box of bird's nest. ROFL.

2009-05-05T19:24:00.003+08:00

3 down, 3 more to go.

Thanks to Andrea today if not I think I will not be able to take exams today man, cos woke up late. I feel that a heavy burden being lifted off right after social studies man, now my hand is so damn painful. Tomorrow is maths, gonna do some revision and hopefully it will be able to pass.

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There's a whisper in the air you breathe
Underneath the sky tonight
There's a piece of you
Inside my heart that runs to deep to describe

2009-05-03T14:38:00.007+08:00

Tomorrow onwards is gonna be a battlefield for 2 weeks. Luckily I have finish studying social studies, currently left with science, half of poa theories, history and maths. Should be able to cover it before I encounter it. Right now, I am feeling very very hungry and my macdonald's haven't arrived! ):

Btw, just to share with you a quiz I heard on the radio. It testes how long do you take to get over something be it relationships, academic etc.

Imagine you are walking alone at night then you came across a house, suddenly a stone flew out from nowhere and hit the window of the house. From what you see, the window which got hit seemed like:

a) It has only one line of crack

b) It has spider-web like cracks

c) The window was smashed into pieces

d) The window remain undamaged

Answers:

a) Although to you it might seemed that it has only one line of crack, but in your life it might not be just the one line of crack, it means that you tend to take a much longer time to get over somethings

b) You will take relatively a short or long time to get over somethings

c) You tend to get over things rather fast

d) Although things on the surface seemed well, but deep inside you are wounded. You need a long long time to recuparate from the hurt

My answer is C. o.o

2009-05-01T01:05:00.004+08:00

Its 1.10am in the morning, the next day. Labour Day. May 1, finally 5 months has passed.

I'm feeling really hungry now man and for once, I don't have weird things racing through my mind. (Cos normally I do when the clock strikes 12am and onwards.) I should be sleeping by now, but my eyelids are not heavy at all so hack. Guess I've passed my beta time. I shall force myself to sleep cos tomorrow have to wake up early. Btw, I just feel like posting parts of lyrics nowadays. (:

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A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

2009-04-28T20:35:00.003+08:00

'Edited

Gah, I'm not gonna let this one statement affect my MYE. I want to do well so I'm gonna mug. Didn't let daddy or mummy know cos I don't want them to be worried since they're already so stress. So the statement was by Ms Siti, she said " WH, have you been studying? You know your results are dropping while the class is improving. Make sure you study hard ok." Yeah, somehow the words strucked me hard but I'm not gonna let this pull me down.

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This 4 months seemed like a year to me somehow. April is gonna end, just 8 more months till this year officially ends. Predict how it will end.

2009-04-27T17:05:00.006+08:00

Firstly, I think my playlist is making me really really sad and depressed because the songs in it are mostly sad and I'm sad now so by hearing it, it makes me sadder.

Secondly, LSB is crazy I swear, he wants us to hand in 7 god damn essays by tomorrow. @#$%^&*(). HE IS MAD. I am supposed to be doing all now, but I am not doing it because I am distracted and jammed.

Thirdly, exams are like next week and I really need to revise but with this huge amount of homeworks, I doubt I can do it. Shit it.

Fourthly, there is still alot of things running through my minddddddd and yes, I'm self-deprecating myself deep down. Perhaps disappointed at the same time.

Fifth, I want to get away from this school fast. Please please please please please. Its driving me up the wall, and I'm sure some other people feels so too.

Sixth, I need to calm myself down and do my damn essays before I really start burning midnight oil.

Seventh, sometimes the thought crosses my mind- It would be good to be a non-living thing. Because it can't feel anything when you throw it around, can't hear, can't talk, can't see. How peaceful. That should explain why I can all sudden just stone like just now and realise it when something struck my mind. Ok, I just stoned again. The above picture, tells everything.

2009-04-23T20:48:00.003+08:00

Its 11 more days till the beginning of HELL. Ok, half hell cos the scarier one haven't appear yet. Didn't blog much this few days, too busy to do so. Everyday I sleep at 11 or 12 plus cos there's tons of homework and I didn't get a chance to revise at all. Damn. I await for my freedom day soon man. Sigh.

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Anyway, recently there's million of things racing through my mind. Both positive and negative, I am also starting to realise, how beautiful this world's nature can be. Wonderful.

2009-04-17T22:21:00.003+08:00

So many things have happened once again, its just like history that keep repeating.

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Daddy is really really sick now I think, it makes me sad and worried and I realised, I can't be like last time anymore, I need to get out of this mess and handle all these things face to face. I can't run away, I need to face it. With all these happening now, I need to strenghten myself together, pull myself together. Not play around anymore, because I don't want to make the people around me to be sad, worried, disappointed, lose faith in me. I need to change to a even better person. I don't want to be stuck in a blackhole that keeps pulling me in.

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I need to pull myself together to study, dont't make daddy and mummy angry when daddy is sick now and lastly, I don't want to make anyone around me sad anymore. I really don't want to. Cos it sucks seeing them getting upset. I hope from now on, I can do my best to do it. No matter how tough it goes, I have to make myself perservere. Life has to go on.

2009-04-16T17:57:00.002+08:00

Time is nearing and I haven't really revise on anything yet. I'm so fucking dead luh, broke down yesterday while talking on the phone with Andrea then even more cos mummy made me. I have to start revising already man, sigh. Luckily tomorrow is AKLTG. Please motivate me. Sigh.

2009-04-11T23:33:00.002+08:00

Gah, its nearing to exams and I haven't really done any revision yet except on POA. Die die die die die. This is random. -.- Anyway, I'm super tired today. Sigh. Maybe cos I'm tired thats why I feel shitty. My ass hurts though, after pooping.

2009-04-07T15:34:00.001+08:00

GOD DAMN NAPFA FUCKING IS DRAINING. Probably not gonna be online tonight.

2009-04-06T21:05:00.003+08:00

这是一个没有答案的问题
我感觉我变了谁让我变了

因为这是一个没有答案的问题
就被你解开了就那么解开了

你走过了在这个迷人苦痛的对白
你甚至不让我知道你对我有多好

慢慢地这份爱悄悄地住下来
深深的在心里没人看得出来
安静的但却一直都在数你默默的爱

慢慢地这份爱已经变成依赖
渐渐地笑容里却让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白你默默的爱

这是一个没有答案的问题
我感觉我变了谁让我变了

因为这是一个没有答案的问题
就被你解开了就那么解开了

你走过了在这个迷人苦痛的对白
你甚至不让我知道你对我有多好

慢慢地这份爱悄悄地住下来
深深的在心里没人看得出来
安静的但却一直都在数你默默的爱

慢慢地这份爱已经变成依赖
渐渐地笑容里却让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白你默默的爱

未来的每一天不管发生什么呢
不能挑给我呢
我要永远陪着你守候着你直到最后

慢慢地这份爱悄悄地住下来
深深的在心里没人看得出来
安静的但却一直都在数你默默的爱

慢慢地这份爱已经变成依赖
渐渐地笑容里却让我充满期待
不用说我就能够明白你默默的爱

2009-04-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

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The pictures above are all strictly COPYRIGHTED ©.

Today was probably the one of few days that made me laugh so hard and yeah, enjoyed myself alot today. The pictures above is drawn by me and Andrea. The dino is drawn by me cos it represents me and the family is by Andrea. I shall try to get a picture of our " L word links" tomorrow. HAHAHA. I think I'm going crazy today. It was a tiring and long day but the girls never fails to cheer me up. ^^

I LOVE MONOCHROME. Heh.

2009-04-04T01:23:00.003+08:00

Its close to 130am in the morning now and I'm feeling half sleepy and depressed for no reason again. Guess it can't be helped. Sigh. Anyway, I shall go sleep after I blog. ^^ So yeah, I feel quite bad today, was supposed to do some tuition homework but didn't manage to cos I was watching show. I feel so sorry for myself. Sigh, didn't manage to do what I was supposed to do. Btw, recently, there's a lot of bad things happening.

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Maybe I'm a drifter
Late at night
'Cause I long for the safety

2009-03-30T20:06:00.003+08:00

"Carve the pain of my life, into my soul" - Kuroshitsuji

从此我失去了理由。

2009-03-29T00:31:00.003+08:00

COMING SOON was awesome man. We sneaked in of cos, NC16 then when we got in, the stupid woman called us out to check. Wtf luh, she let us in first can. Then manager spoke to us say first time so let us in next time must bring IC. The show is scary and gore, I didn't really scream cos it was just too gore. So buddy sat beside me on my right then Andrea sat on my left. They were both scared and screaming. Buddy fingernails very long sia, now still have a small red mark. HAHA. Then Andrea and Delia damn cute, hide under the jacket one. HAHAHA. Overall its damn nice.

After movie, head down to Ben and Jerry then sat outside the empty space and we spotted a PL couple, so me and buddy got KPO and we went to be paparazzi. -.- In the end, someone spotted us spying. HAHAHA. So malu can. Went for dinner at Bugis with Andrea. ^^ then we had a long long long talk. ^^ K, I shall go back in doing tuition homework now.

2009-03-25T20:09:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling rather frustrated now. Both in personal and academic. But I'm not gonna whine and say life is unfair and that I wish to die or what like how I used to do cos I know there are people suffering from worst cases somewhere in the world also so I'm just gonna blog about it as a form of anger venting and I hope by then I'll feel better.

Life don't really suck that badly now, I just hope I know whats a lie and whats a truth. But life is not meant to be fair, so yes, accept the fact that I can't know. I can't entirely trust my family's words sometimes, I think mummy is being a bit over paranoid and daddy is just I don't know what he is doing at all. Anyway, there's nothing much I can do now though, I can't control what they think. Only thing I can do is just pray hard that its just passing clouds. But now, I can't imagine what will be the scene like when the phone rings or rather I don't dare to imagine. One thing is for sure, the atmosphere around now is not good. Sigh. Ok, I'm finally done with my rantings.

I really hope whatever that is happening right now is just passing clouds.
It WILL BE.

2009-03-24T22:30:00.003+08:00

I'm halfway done with my god damn chinese homework, and at the same time I feel sleepy. Sigh, but today was a not bad day. Except things that happen in the morning. -.- But if things haven't happen in the morning I doubt I'll be able to find white white back. Yes, she came back after 1 month ALIVE. I don't know where she went but thank god she's back finally. Phew.

When the bullet hits you,
You feel the pain for few seconds.
That is when you feel that you are alive still.

2009-03-22T19:07:00.002+08:00

I don't want school to start. Damnnnnn. Sigh. Btw, I'm feeling sleepy and bored now. -.- Was suppose to play STEPS with Andrea but apparently, I don't think the software works on my laptop. Sigh, one less game to try sia. I shall stop here now, I'm feeling hungry, sleepy and bored. Sigh.

SCHOOL IS A HORROR. RAWR. !@#$%^&*()_

2009-03-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

I think today is one of my most boring days, I have really nothing to do and I'm getting irritated with people. -.- K, I'm going crazy again I think. Finished watching L word season 6 and I swear its god damn nice luh. Good thing Jenny died. HAH. If I have the time, I should go re-watch again. Thats all for today.

2009-03-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling vexed, angry and depressed now over the plans to go overseas. Like seriously, I feel like screaming. Isn't it ok just to go for 4 days? C'mon luh, my freaking holiday is only one freaking week can and I still have a lot of things to do also. Plus, grandma is also my kin why wouldn't I want to visit her when she is sick? But I only have one week. Sigh, if only the god damn holiday is longer. Ok, now I just feel damn vexed and I can't think straight now. Damn.

2009-03-13T17:28:00.003+08:00

Edited'

Today marks the end of term 1 and its Friday the 13th. I feel like blogging and at the same time I don't feel like. Wtf man. Oh well, at least I don't feel shitty today but worried about mama.

I can't wait to get out of school man. Then yeah, no more uniforms and no more stupid rules. HAHA. Thats like 1 year more and yay, we're free. That is if I manage to even clear my 'N' and 'O' levels. So yup, do my best man.

So the holidays are up, things to do will be try to revise more and complete homeworks. Sigh, daddy haven't even decide when we'll be flying off.

and day by day, I miss it.

2009-03-11T23:17:00.006+08:00

Its been 4 years since I ever survived in this school man. Ever since sec 1, I realised there's so many things I've experienced.

Love. Feeling of liking someone. Being backstabbed. Anger. Vengence. Touched. Evil. The feeling of being misplaced. Dilemma. Confused. Sad. Emo. Almost everything.

It was ever since sec 1 and all the way till now. Its kinda funny man, how humans changed since then. I've changed too, which is good. At least, now I know how to think. If it was the past me, probably everything that is around me I'll just take it like a child. No idea how to deal with it, running away, killing myself, find faults. Yup, maybe that was how I used to be that time. But now, at least I'll know I won't deal with it like that anymore.

Because this 4 years, I've learn somethings along the way. I realised, vengence don't stay in me for long anymore. Ever since then, it has disappear. Anyway, I'm alright ok. -.- Perfectly fine, its just one of my emo nights again. Haha. So don't need to worry whether something happened to me anot cos nothing happen. HAHAHA.

Anyway, I really really miss white white. Like really, daddy said it may have gone to heaven and crossed that rainbow bridge. I really miss her, although people may regard it as a stray cat. But I don't cos ever since the day I fostered that 4 years friendship with it. I never once see her as a stray but my friend.

White white, no matter where you are now. I know you didn't leave me 2 weeks ago on purpose. I know perhaps you have something yet to be accomplish thats why you left. At least, if you had really be gone in this world, I thank you for leaving me without me seeing you because I don't know how will I react if I see you left with my very own eyes. I hope maybe one day I will see you again, or perhaps you are still living somewhere. No matter where you are, you will always be my precious friend and I love you, lastly, its sad that I won't be able to live you in at our new house. Even as I typed it now, I'm crying because its hard to accept. I swear, if I see you again. I will not hesitate to bring you home. Because Mickey misses you too.

Somethings to add on more to my misery- I miss you, I just hit the corner of my mouth accidentally and it hurts, I scraped the top of my feet on the god damn computer table and its freaking pain now. Lastly, my jaw bone hurts. Whats more, my eyes are red from crying over white white and now I feel shitty. -.-

2009-03-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

I'll upload the videos asap once I get the video's cable. -.- Yes, I lost it and the memory card is crazy too. So sorry sorry, if anyone wants the video for yesterday. -.-

Speaking of which, its about time I clear up all my IT things man. Its so messy. RAWR.

2009-03-07T20:41:00.003+08:00

Today was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee despite the weather man and I managed to throw buddy into the sea. HOHOHO. Next time we should have another someting like this except with enough umbrella so that our things won't get burn, enough mat so that we can put more things and lesser food cos today was over flooding with food.

Adeline was as usual late, so we only manage to get in Sentosa at about 12 plus then play, talk, video cam-ed. I'll upload the video asap. Btw, I was dripping when we were going to meet Delia luh. -.- Embarassing man. So played played played, and piggyback buddy. She's heavy man. xD But still, manage to carry her still. Played truth or dare and they dared me and Andrea to do the thing again. RAWR. Then it started to rainnnn, so we have to go. Left Sentosa at about 430pm. I'm not tanned at all. Blahhhhh. Went Delia house for dinner. ^^ Thankssss. Ok, I'm super tired now. -.-

2009-03-05T21:18:00.001+08:00

I'm so in love with Mozilla Firefox sia. Its so much faster than IE and lot more efficient man. HOHOHO. I think I'm gonna uninstall IE now. ^^

2009-03-04T22:11:00.003+08:00

I'm going mad cos of my blogskin. All started yesterday, when me and my brilliant idea of changing it then I accidentally screwed the whole damn thing up. So I use a crappy skin yesterday to take over for the time being. Then just now, I accidentally delete my whole entire blog info. All except my archives. How nice man and now its finally ok luh. But but, I might change again cos don't really like it. ( I'LL BE CAREFUL THIS TIME)

Anyway, there's some links that are missing. So if you happen to pass by my blog and find that I never link you but you link me, please leave a tag. -.- As I said, I accidentally delete the whole thing.

Today was not so bad day, except that I got attacked by buddy with Andrea's water gun. -.- So practically I was all drenched. Hoho, buddy also. AHHAHAHAHA. I got rather pissed with Cheong's words today man. Its like directly shooting us luh. Wtf. Ohoh, I kinda enjoyed chemistry today. HAHAHAH. Its fun man. Btw, good luck Delia for tomorrow and thanks for the carrot cake! ^^

Just 2 more days to Saturday. HOHO. Time flies fast. ^^

2009-02-28T00:16:00.003+08:00

Some circuit in my head just switched on all of the sudden. My nice nice brain is reminiscing the past again. Like alot of things, such like:

"Firstly, how you became my best in NTPS, Xin Ni."

"I think back how we known each other since sec 1, Eileen."

"I wonder its just so funny how we come this far, Andrea. =^^="

"I think of how I talked to you in sec 1, Delia."

"I start to think, how I first known you, Aisyah."

"I wonder how we became friends the first day, Dagna."

"When was it, that I known you and called you "Jie", Jia Yi."

"I also start to think how you became my buddy, Kellsie."

"At the same time,I wondered how you became my scandal, Kellice"

Lastly, how all things have became what it is right now.

You see, I'm just start to think of how everything became how it is now man. Its kinda fun though, when you think back of some incidents. It just feels funny. Hahaha, btw, reason to why I'm thinking is probably due to me blog hopping then you know, some people's old blog/lj/xanga is there and the date states 2006 and 2007. Yeah, makes me think man. Hahaha, anyway, time for sleep.

2009-02-27T22:26:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JLcJ5Mez1c

Rose: Oh, Jack! I'm flying!
Jack: Urgh, you're so fat!
Rose: Oh Jack, hold me!
Jack: Urgh.
Rose: OH JACK, HOLD ME JACK! (falls down)

Jack: OMG! We gotta get out of here! The boat is sinking!
Rose: No, I don't think so.
Jack: What do you mean?! Look, there's water everywhere.
Rose: But Jack, thats just me.
Jack: What are you talking about?!
Rose: (PEES)

Jack: Promise me that you'll comb your hair every morning.
Rose: I promise.
Jack: Promise me that you'll brush your teeth more often.
Rose: Oh ok.
Jack: Last, promise me that you'll never let go.
Rose: I promise I will let go Jack. Just shut up and die already.
Jack: (Dies)
Rose: Wake up Jack!

HAHAHHA. I still cannot get over it man. HAHAHAH. Its so fucking funny man.

2009-02-26T18:45:00.006+08:00

HAHAHA. I swear I'm gonna die of laughing from all those funny videos man. Especially the one that is on buddy's lj. ITS GOD DAMN FUNNY. But all these make me look like a retard. -.- Cos mummy scolded me for laughing like some mad person. I was being a retard in the bus yesterday cos I saw a damn gigantic rainbow. ^^ Anyway, I'm super disappointed with my poa, cos probably I'll just get 10 marks and below. -.- Sigh. Btw, the cat in the pictures is sleeping.

2009-02-22T20:02:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Xinni.

1. Besides Ur lips,where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
-My cheeks?

2. How do u feel when u wake up this morning?
-Just another day of tuition. Sleepy.

3. Who was the last person u took photo with?
-Andrea!

4. Would you consider urself to be spoiled?
-Think so.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
-Yup, but too bad. I got slight anemia. TT

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
-Nope.

7. Do u wan someone dead?
-Yeah, but too bad can't. Cos God forbid to do so.

8. What does ur last text message says?
-From Eileen. 'Lol, I wan a biker jacket. Haha.'

9. What are u thinking right now?
-How to answer this quiz.

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
-Yesssssssss.

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
-I forgot. xD

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
-I forgot too. xD

13. Is someone on ur mind right now?
-Yessssssssss.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
-Eileen.

10 people tagged to do this quiz.
1. Andrea
2.Delia
3.Aisyah
4.Jia Yi
5.Attika
6.Dagna
7.Kellsie
8.Kellice
9.Alicia
10.Keok Lan
[ps. don't want do also can. -.- cos i nv enable right click.]

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
-HOHOHO. Don't want tell. xD

16. Is 3 a male or female?
-Female

17. If 7 and 10 get tgt,would it be a good thing?
-HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. ARE U JOKING?!

18. What is 1 studying abt?
-Smss.

19. When was the last time u had a chat with them?
-Today or through sms?

20. Is 4 single?
-Currently.

21. Say something about number 2?
-RICHHHHHHHH.

22. What do you think about 3 & 6 being tgt?
-No way man. HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

23. Describe 9?
-Loyal friend?

24. What will you do if 6 n 7 fight?
-I have no idea.

25. Do you like 8?
-Yeah, my scandal eh.

2009-02-20T20:04:00.003+08:00

Finally the 5 days of hell have ended.

I just realise my sub concious is not working very well lately, maybe cos lack of sleep I guess. -.- I keep saying a rectangle as a triangle without knowing that I said it wrongly. Anyway, Mrs Tay showed us a video on child abuse today, I swear watching animals/human get abuse I'll get so bloody angry that I just feel like punishing whoever who do that. But still, things like that can't be control. Maybe thats why God wants to end the world soon cos its getting scarier. Even though, I'm a human, I still think humans can get so scary sometimes.

Some parts of the world really has no justice man, I wonder where it went?
Pronounce innocent unless there's evidence you are guilty? What law is that man.
Now I think that living in Singapore is quite lucky.

2009-02-19T20:18:00.004+08:00

Class gonna be in chaos tomorrow I guess? God, why is so many things happening at once now? Anyway, nobody forsee what gonna happen though. Just don't let this affect 'N' level. I have this feeling, the class is gonna tear apart soon, just very soon. Whats more, we have 1 more year to go through. Sigh, I can't wait to get out of there.

-

Damn, I hit my left palm against the stupid tap in my bathroom. RAWR. I can't move it now. Thank god that its not the right palm and I haven't study chemistry yet. -.- I think I'm beginning to develop test phobia.

2009-02-18T22:53:00.003+08:00

I should be going to sleep at this time but let me just finish blogging first. We're all so damn tired man, all thanks to the damn 'test week' this week. Sigh. I can't wait for Friday to come man, then I can sleep peacefully. HOHO. Btw, everything is so far so good and my nice DSTT card have finally arrive today. ^^ Ok, not time to concentrate on that yet.

I need to improve my POA, I swear.
I can't afford to get just a borderline since this year is 'O' level.
To be frank, I almost was on the verge of crying when I found out I failed the assignment.
But I held on to my tears, so yup, didn't cry. Thats a good thing.
And yup, I told myself. Its gonna be ok and it did.

Come on WH. Don't lose to yourself.
Don't hesitate when you are doing it.
Do your very best man.
You can do it, challenge yourself.
After this year, everything is gonna be fine.
Come on.

2009-02-12T21:34:00.003+08:00

For a moment just now, I realise I should save more money. Cos it seems that I have been spending money too much this week. -.- I feel so bad for mummy and daddy. Oh well, I should stop taking cab unless necessary man. Like when I going for tuition at Andrea's house and I should limit myself for buying so much things. Great depression coming man, must save up for rainy days. Andrea must save too. ^^ Btw, I'm still wondering to myself whether to get that Zinc wallet anot. RAWR. I have till Sunday to decide. Sighhh.

2009-02-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

Just hang up the phone on conference with lulu and Chloe. Basically, I was silent the whole time since I also don't know how to answer lulu's questions so leave it to Chloe instead. -.- I swear lulu needs to calm down man. Btw, I'm feeling rather sleepy now, heh, actually suppose to sleep just right after I hang up but decide that I should jus research on blog sales.

Practically, that mad chinese teacher of mine went mad again. Ah, who cares? I do her work cos I want my marks only. You teach I do, simple as that. You don't bother how I do in class because I will still do my work no matter what. Geddit? I want my marks only, not your scoldings. Why? Because I think you are freaking bias. Ok, nevermind. Should not talk about her.

It was raining meows and woofs today, and Ms Poh went to curse me man. -.-
She came out of school..
Me and Andrea: Hi Ms Poh! ^^
Ms Poh: Hello, you waiting for cab uh?
Me and Andrea: Yeah.
Ms Poh: Aiya, this time you surely won't get a cab one luh. Change shift. Cannot one.
Me and Andrea: WHYYYYYYYY. TT..

And we waited half an hour for a god damn shit cab, somemore we crossed overhead bridge ok. RAWR. Anyway, just now in the evening, I missed my chance of buying a damn nice and cheap wallet. You know those promoters that go to coffee shop to sell things. Yeah, it was 10bucks only ok! Then I only got 20bucks with me for dinner and stuff so I told him I didn't have enough money and guess what? He reduced it to 8bucks ok. Then I still reject because I'm stupid, I didn't realise I have my ATM card with me. Damn. Anyway, I hope he'll come by here soon again. RAWR. My nice wallet. Damn.

2009-02-05T21:11:00.002+08:00

I swear the damn bloody lao shi is making me hate chinese lessons damn alot, plus she is fucking bias! And worst, tomorrow's there is her lesson. Bloody hell, she just love to pick on me and Delia. I hate it when she calls my full name. Fuck.

2009-02-02T17:06:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY. ^^ Although you won't see it. -.- But still, anyway. So sorry for not getting her a present this year. Sigh, I shuld go find and give her a belated one.

Sigh, I need to stop tensing my shoulder muscles up man. Its getting harder and harder luh and more uncomfortable. Even Alicia also say its damn hard. Sigh, my shoulder hurts man. STOP TENSING, GOD DAMMIT. -.- I need to relax them and I miss uncle, his massage are awesome.

and sorry dear. ><

2009-02-01T20:13:00.003+08:00

This 2 days are fun fun man.

Yesterday went out real early and went home real late. HAHA. Went to Alfee's house first and ate bbq there, then headed for Bridget's house by 855. Used the hair straighterner (?) and thanks Bridget's mama for the ang pao! ^^ So after that took 93 to Andrea house, played with Wii DDR and House of Dead. Thanks Andrea's mama for the ang pao too! Although you teased me. -.- The last stop was Yasmin's house, had lou hei and I swear we were all damn synchronize man, like chickens. HAHAHAHA. Thanks Yasmin's mama for the ang paos too! Ohoh, then at about 8pm me, Andrea and Yasmin went to the swing then started talking about somethings. Reached home at 11plus. Hoho, mummy never scold me. ^^

As for today, went Delia's house! Before that, met at Shaw and we had breakfast at Mac. Then went to watch The Wedding Game. Its not bad though, quite funny. After that, headed to Delia's house. We gamble with moneh, I won $13 and played Wii Guitar Heroes, I can only play the drums not the guitar. -.- Cabbed home and sent Eileen and Andrea off first. Lastly, thanks to Delia's mama, grandmama, uncle and aunty for the ang paos! ^^ Btw, I'm a dinosaur.

So the bottom quiz I was tagged:

Tagged by Aisyah.

1.Are you friendly?
I think so?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
I have no idea. -.-

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Maybe.

4. What would you do with a Billion Dollars?
Donate charity, give family members and enjoy myself. ^^

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
If its Eileen, no way. -.- What about ex- best friend. xD

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone.

7. List out any of your most favourite artist.
Let my friendster do the answering. -.-

8. What is your favourite food?
Anything that is nice. I'm a dinosaur. x3

9. Is there anything that has made you happy?
Everything that revolves around me are fine.

10. What makes you angry?
Uh, some people?

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Studying, I guess?

12. What are you thinking of right now?
What to do later lor.

13. What are the most important things in your life?
Family, friends, maintaining my life.

14. Single or attached?
LALALAL. xD

15. What are your favourite colours?
Black, blue, green, grey, white.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yup. Equal among all.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one I find it hard to forget and the one who knows me.

18. Would you forgive or forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Its kinda hard for me to forgive and forget. Needs time.

19. What do you really want to know?
My future?

5 people I've tagged:
Can I chose not to? If yes, then maybe Andrea, Delia, Kellsie, Dagna and Jia Yi?